The Weight of Diamonds

Hearts Don't Break //

I have skin sensitivities.  This means that I am often allergic to things I never had any reason to know in advance.  At my work I’m allergic to everything.  From the latex gloves to the cleaning supplies.  EVERYTHING.  For the short time I wore my ring to work, I got a rash.  Chemicals got caught under it and my skin would begin to peel off.  Eventually I gave up on wearing it work, which lead to being out of the habit of wearing it at all. I haven’t worn my ring on a regular basis in years. I haven’t bothered to get back into the habit. Sometimes, I pull my wedding rings out of the red velvet pouch they came in and hold them in my hand, feeling their weight.  They feel heavy and foreign.  I can’t imagine putting them back on. I suppose, if I want to be deep Continue reading

Sometimes Having Your Spouse Home is Exactly Like a Bed of Roses

Sometimes Having Your Husband Home is EXACTLY Like a Bed of Roses //

Somewhere along the line it was decided that military spouses are never allowed to complain, even when joking.  I’m not sure where this rule comes from, but I find it really ridiculous and very hard to live up to. The fact of the matter is that no matter how often or how long my husband and I are separated, we are still married.  This means that normal married stuff happens, like bickering, fighting, and down right freezing the other out because you are mad.  Being separated may make us appreciate what we have, and I do miss his pile of stinky shoes in my entry way when he’s not here, but it still bugs me when he is. The dirty cammies stinking up the house, the stinky boots and general mess is only endearing for the first few days he’s back.  After that, I fully expect my husband to return Continue reading

Marriage is Worth The Fight

My Dearest Husband, There have been times when we have both thrown our hands up in surrender to our frustrations.  There have been times when we have both questioned our devotion, our hearts wanting to continue to love each other, but our minds unable to hear that whisper through the shouting.  There have been times when I know I have wanted to leave. But here I stand, nearly seven years after we first met, still lying awake a night waiting for you to call when you are on a mission.  Here I stand, still waiting impatiently for you to return home from work, so that I may tell you about my day.  Here I stand, still fluttering at the thought of you, still sighing at the breath of you, still smiling at the touch of you. There was never a time that we promised this would be easy, only times Continue reading

My Thoughts On Infidelity

In light of recent events, I’m sure you all know what I am talking about, I’m going to do something I rarely do.  I’m going to tell you exactly what I think, and I am not going to sugar coat it. Infidelity can happen for a number of reasons.  The man who would never dream of cheating can grow weary and unhappy in his marriage and begin finding emotional solace in the arms of another woman.  The woman who has always stood strong can begin to feel unwanted and unloved and seek appreciation in the arms of another man.  But make no mistake about this: Cheating is never acceptable.  Whether you have become too emotionally close to another person, or are actually sleeping with them.  Whether your spouse is ignoring you, or you have fallen out of love with them.  I don’t care.  I don’t care if your job is Continue reading

An Engagement Story: Part Two

Remember my post about my not so romantic, no one says “AWWW” to, not so gushy, not so jealousy inspiring engagement story? If not, check it out here.  But if you do, then here’s take two, and three for that matter.  :) Attempt number two comes in a close second… Or it’s a tie.   The day after getting engaged, we moved into an apartment.  While loading the moving truck, my husband approached me with a large purple, plastic, heart shaped ring from a gumball machine (they were still fitting the diamond into the setting I had picked out the night before).  He presented it to me and in the absolutely least romantic manner he simply said, “Will you marry me.”  While I was covered in dirt, standing in the back of a moving van, sweaty from the hot day. Not romantic.  He opted to use ANOTHER mulligan and plan Continue reading

Stuck In The Middle: My Weird Life as a Reservists Wife

A few weeks ago I was asked to write a guest post about reserve life.  Check it out on Cammo Style Love!    Let me know what you think! It was such an honor to be asked to write for such a great blog! And don’t forget the Giveaway!!!!  There is a button on the sidebar to make it easier for you to enter!